Love You Can’t Say

Clarie Bear had grown a lot taller, and now she enjoyed the adults holding her and dancing.

Alex was always an efficient person. In less than a few days, he had found a buyer for the YT Apartment.

When I bought my place at the YT Apartment, the price was not high. But the expenses for the decoration and furniture cost a lot.

The buyer paid readily and fast. Although I was in a hurry to sell, they did not negotiate the price. They paid me the same amount as the market price.

It would take some days to process housing paperwork. I had planned to visit the cemetery to see my grandmother and Grandpa Freddy, but I never had time.

So, on the weekend, I went out early in the morning. Clarie Bear was too young to be taken to the cemetery.

I drove to the cemetery by myself instead.

It was almost March, the sunshine was not that dazzling in the morning. Maybe because of the rain, the dew was relatively heavy.

It was too early, and there were not many people here at the cemetery. I stepped on the blue-stone slabs and worshiped the deceased people I cared about one by one.

I stood in front of my grandmother’s tombstone, looking at the faded photos on the tombstone, I was in a trance for a long time.

“Grandma, I seem to have screwed up my life. You all were gone, and I am all myself now. Can you please take care of my baby for me in heaven…”

Suppressing the pain inside my heart, I took a breath and said no more. The dead rested in peace, and the living would in peace.

When I noticed there was someone behind me, I froze slightly. But I didn’t even need to think hard to figure out that it was Dennis.

I didn’t look back. After a long time, I sighed, turned around, and walked out of the cemetery without looking at him.

Passing by, my wrist was pulled by him. I was stunned, but just for a moment. I then shook off his hand. With a very light expression, almost no sorrow or joy, I looked at him calmly and said, “It doesn’t matter if you don’t want to sign on the divorce agreement. After a three-year separation, our divorce will automatically be legitimate anyway.”

He pursed his lips, his eyes were extremely low, “Is there no turning back?”

I lowered my eyes, collected my emotions, looked up at him, and smiled, “When you lied to me, you should have seen that we would end up like this.”

Dennis looked at me, and his eyes were chillingly deep, “Do you hate me?”

I smiled lightly, and said, “Dennis, I don’t hate you. All that’s all I feel – I don’t hate you at all.”

New beginnings were just around the corner.

I distanced myself from him, and I didn’t look at his face again. I said lightly, “If you have ever fallen for me, even just for a moment, then, Dennis, please set each other free. It’s just all for the best.”

I turned around and left the cemetery. When I returned to the YT Apartment, the sky was a little dark already.

Before opening the door, I could hear Luna’s voice coming from the inside.

I opened the door.

Sure enough, Luna and Samuel were sitting in the living room, teasing Clarie Bear. When they saw me, they both froze for a moment and sat up straight, a bit like two children who had made mistakes.

“You… You are back!” Luna said, looking a little nervous. Her facial expression was complicated.

I pursed my lips and nodded lightly. Seeing that Alex and Luis were not around, I asked, “Did they go out?”

“No!” Luna said, “Mr. Thomson is in the baby’s nursery, and Luis is out shopping.”

I nodded and didn’t say anything else.

When Clarie Bear saw me, she stretched out her hand for my hugs. So I held her and sat on the couch.

Luna and Samuel looked at each other with mixed looks.

It seemed that they had something to tell me. But I didn’t ask any questions, just teasing Clarie Bear.

After a while, probably because Luna was unable to stand the silent atmosphere, she decided to speak up. Luna looked at me and said, “I heard from Luis that you and Mr. George are getting a divorce?”

I nodded, “Mhm-hmm.” And I said nothing else.

I was stunned briefly, not sure what to say for a while.

However, Samuel spoke with a bit of sullen anger, “You’ll be better off leaving him. Dennis’s devious mind would eventually ruin our family, sooner or later.”

Luna frowned slightly, not knowing what to say for a while. She then looked at me, and sighed slightly, “What’s your plan in the future?”

I pursed my lips, “What would you two like to tell me? Can you please stop beating around the bush and tell me straightforwardly instead?”Nôvel(D)rama.Org's content.

Luna and Samuel were stunned for a moment, then they looked at each other. Afterward, they looked at me and said, “Clara, have you found out that your DNA and Olivia’s were swapped?”

I looked at the two of them, “I have. But the two of you should know better than me. I grew up with my grandmother since I was little. And after all these years, I have never thought about finding my birth parents. Since you abandoned me, I’ve decided not to acknowledge your two’s identities for the rest of my life.”

After a pause, seeing Luna bowing her head and wiping her tears, I took a breath and said, “Besides, so many things have happened in the past year. All I could do is not to hate you or to blame you. So in the future, we could stay out of each other’s lives and mind our own business.”

Luna’s eyes were already red, and she looked at me with tears in her eyes, “Sweetie, it’s all my fault. You have every right to hate us, as your mother, I completely understand. But you can’t deny us as your birth parents, after all, I carried you for nine months. I know I made a terrible mistake. I did make an irrational decision, but I never meant to hurt you at all? Please know that!”

“So, are you saying that since you’ve swapped me with Olivia, as long as it’s not your own kid, you could hurt her recklessly? At some point, we all have some grievances with others.” I suppressed my emotions. “If you have to ruthlessly kill everyone who has a grievance with you, what will happen to all of us?”

“I was wrong!” Luna said tearfully, “I have never stopped thinking about all these. I’ve made too many mistakes along my way these years. I know karma will eventually come at me, and this is the bitter fruit!”

Samuel’s face was a little gloomy. He pulled Luna into his arms, patted her back gently, and helplessly comforted her, “There, there. These are all over, now.”

After a pause, Samuel looked at me and frowned, “Kid, I understand how you feel. If you don’t want to go back to the Lewis family, we won’t force you to. But we are your parents, we would never want to see our daughter suffer outside.”

Samuel then took out a Black Card from his suit, “Take this, please. You are the daughter of the Lewis family, no matter where you are in the future, you must take care of yourself well. This card has no spending limits. We will not interfere with how you’ll live your life, but please always treat yourself well.”

Luna looked at him, a little bewildered, “What are you doing? Where would she go to now? She is divorcing Dennis. She has no one on her side now but only us! She should stay with us, so I can take care of her. Besides, she has to take care of Clarie Bear now, she won’t get by on her own.”

Samuel sighed, “She has her own plans. We have missed out on so much of our life. Don’t involve her in the Lewis family. She has the right to choose her own life.”

Luna was stunned for a while and remained silent for a long time. Eventually, she nodded lightly and looked at me with red eyes, “Clara, you are outside alone. Take care of yourself, and you are always welcome to come back anytime you want.”