Love You Can’t Say

I held Clarie Bear up in my arms. But she was still whining while grabbing on me. I asked, “What’s wrong, Clarie Bear?”

“Perhaps she didn’t want the formula milk. Clara, you should go upstairs and try breastfeeding her.” Luis finally spoke easily.

Seeing this, Luna immediately said, “Let me show you the way upstairs. The baby is still too young and it’s normal she doesn’t like the taste of milk powder.”

I didn’t say anything else hearing her say so. I carried Clarie Bear and went up to the second floor following Luna.

“You can nurse her here. The little guy must be very hungry.” Luna said, with a very kind and loving smile on her face.

I sat in the chaise longue, without any hesitation, started breastfeeding Clarie Bear.

I thought Luna would leave in a while, but she didn’t. Instead, she was standing on the side and watching me breastfeeding.

This little guy, Clarie Bear, was really picky on her baby food. After eating for a while, she started to relax. In the meantime, she raised her little hands to grab her little feet. Her movements were extremely cute, and her big sparkling eyes were looking around.

“Clara, you are too skinny. You just had a baby but your stomach was too flat. After all, you and Dennis are still young and don’t know the best way to take care of yourselves. If you don’t mind, you can stay in the L Community for a few days. The new year’s coming. Luis told me you were planning to celebrate together. How about you all celebrate here in the L Community? We have professional chefs and nutritionists, this way you could heal and recover properly, too. What do you think?”

She surprised me by saying so. I answered, “I’m good, thank you for your kind offer, Ms. Luna.”

She looked a little embarrassed. She said after a pause, “Clara, are you holding grudges on the past? Look, it was over now. You and Clarie Bear are safe, and I have been punished – The Lewis family doesn’t take me in anymore. Samuel has no other choice but comes to Newton Town with me. We should let bygones be bygones and reconnect with one another like in the old days. Wouldn’t that be nice?”

I held my breath in anger and looked up at her. I found what she just had said ridiculous, “Ms. Luna, to earn money, you work hard; to restore your reputation, you do good deeds. But you’ve killed someone, there’s no way you could bring my baby back!”Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

Seeing that her face went a little pale, I pursed my lips and said, “Ms. Luna, please give me space for privacy. I am nursing my baby.”

Luna opened her mouth and wanted to say something. But after looking at me, she silently exited.

Clarie Bear was enjoying her nursing time. I sat on the chaise longue and looked at the pink and extravagant decoration in the room. I couldn’t help but be stunned.

It looked like a girl’s room. Luis would occasionally come to L Community, but it couldn’t be him. And it was even more impossible to be Luna’s. It was most likely to be Olivia’s bedroom.

Clarie Bear was full now, and she started reaching her tiny hands out to grab stuff around her. I looked down at her, and she gave me a heart-warming smile. I hugged her closer and gave her a kiss.

The bedroom door was opened, and I fixed my clothes quickly. It turned out to be Olivia. She was staring at me with a face as heavily cold as it was soaked in ice.

“Clara, why do you have to take everything I own? The people I love, the family I care about, and now even my bedroom! What do you want from me?”

I thought her words were a bit inexplicable, so I frowned, “Ms. Olivia, what’s yours will always be yours. I can’t take anything from you, neither will I do so, because I do not care! I have zero interest in your family or your bedroom. And as for Dennis, he and I are lawfully-wedded husband and wife. I don’t have to take him from you. Because he is legitimate mine. Do you get it?”

Olivia freaked out, “If you never got in between us and seduced him, why would he ever marry you? He was just being a responsible man. Do you really think it’s out of love?”

I found her ridiculous, “So, Ms. Olivia, if Dennis saw me as one of his responsibilities, then what does he feel for you? Is it love? If he ever loved you, why wouldn’t he take a look at you? A man who barely sees you would be in love with you? You are out of your mind!”

“You…”

She was so angry that she was about to raise her hand to hit me, but I stopped her, “Ms. Olivia, restrain yourself. Life is like playing cards. You used to have a handful of good cards, but you played so badly in the end. Have you ever reflected on why your parents don’t want to see you?”

I was holding Clarie Bear and didn’t plan to argue with her. After all, with the child, if there was a fight, I would suffer if the child was injured accidentally.

Seeing that I was leaving, she blocked the door, “Clara, what are you trying to do?”

I laughed, “Ms. Luna, I should ask you this question – What are you going to do?”

She was blocking my way out and not letting me go – What were you going to do, Olivia?

“I will give up Dennis and stop pestering only if you stop showing up in front of my parents again, or you’ll regret it!”

I really felt that she was a little baffling, “I am never interested in seeing you or your parents! Please step aside and let me go.”

She seemed to have completely lost it. Although she was angry, she couldn’t do anything to me.

After making way for me, Olivia angrily got out of the bedroom.

Seeing me coming out, Dennis greeted me, took Clarie Bear from me, and said, “What’s the matter? You look annoyed!”

I pursed my lips and said lightly, “Don’t worry about it.”

When I got back to the dining table, Dennis kept serving me food. He took a few bites, then he started tickling Clarie Bear.

I ate surprisingly a little bit more probably because I was just done breastfeeding. Dennis smiled happily, and Luna and Samuel seemed to have their eyes on me the whole time.

Although I found it strange, I didn’t ask any questions. After eating for a while, everyone had finished, so I didn’t continue either.

“What’s wrong, babe?” Dennis put a small piece of braised pork on my plate. “Did you have enough?”

I nodded, “Yes!”

“The plum blossoms in the L Community are gorgeous at this time of the year. Why don’t you go out for a walk to help with digestion?” Luna said, and her eyes looked at Clarie Bear.

The little guy fell asleep. Luna asked the nanny to come over and said to her, “Take care of the child here for a while, please.”

“Thank you. But it’s getting late. We appreciate you both invited us over and thank you for treating us to such a nice meal. We should get going.” Luna and Samuel didn’t say anything important rather than chitchatting with us the whole night.

It was a bit strange that they had invited us over only for a dinner gathering.

Samuel looked at Dennis with his black eyes, and he said smilingly, “Mr. George, do you have some time to talk? It’s about the Lewis family’s business.”

Dennis looked at me, pursed his lips, and said, “Go take a walk, babe. I will take Clarie Bear with me. And we will be home soon.”

I nodded, glanced at Samuel, and then said to Dennis, “Is it okay to have Clarie Bear around when you guys talk?”

“Don’t worry about it. Go take a walk!”

I always felt that Dennis was intentionally creating more chances for me to get along with Luna and Samuel.

I felt a little irritable.

The yard of L Community was very big. As Luna said, there were many plum blossoms in the backyard, which was very beautiful.

“Clara, our chef made some more matcha cakes. Bring some with you when you leave.” Luna said, following me and looking at me earnestly.

I wasn’t used to her acting this way, so I slightly pursed my lips and said, “Ms. Luna, I appreciate your kind gesture. But it’s not too healthy for me to be eating too much dessert now. I only have some occasionally.”

She looked at me and said cautiously, “Clara, do you still hate me in your heart?”