Freed: Fifty Shades Freed as told by Christian

Chapter 88

Portraits?

Where is she going with this?

My anxiety returns in full force, prickling my scalp.

“Today in the gallery you liked the Florence D’elle photographs. And I remember what you said in the

Louvre. And, of course, there were those other photographs.” Her voice drops. Nôvel/Dr(a)ma.Org - Content owner.

Oh good God. I don’t want to talk about them!

“I thought you might, um, like to take pictures of me.”

“Pictures? Of you?”

She nods, blinking, her uncertainty obvious, and I examine the box, playing for time. It’s a state-of-the-

art camera, a thoughtful gift from my thoughtful wife, but it makes me uncomfortable. Really

uncomfortable

Why does she think I want to photograph her naked?

That isn’t my life anymore.

I look up at her. “Why do you think I want this?” I whisper.

A frisson of alarm crosses her face. “Don’t you?” she asks.

No, Ana. You’ve got this all wrong.

Suddenly, I see it clearly: my old life and my new one careening together like a car crash and inflicting

untold damage. Those photographs were fundamentally to protect me—to protect my position and my

family. I have to make her understand that I don’t need this from her…but I don’t want to hurt her

feelings.

Try the truth, Grey. Communicate.

“For me, photos like those have usually been an insurance policy, Ana.”

And for your pleasure, Grey. Yes. It felt intimate, but deep down I knew I was safe viewing my subject

through a lens. I was always at a remove; the camera put a wall between me and my sub, even though

it was a thrill to capture them in the most intimate poses.

Fuck. Shame washes over me, and I’m in the confessional spilling my darkest secrets. “I know I’ve

objectified women for so long.”

Ana tucks her hair behind her ear, and looks as confounded as I feel. “And you think taking pictures of

me is objectifying me?” she whispers.

I close my eyes. What is happening here?

Why wouldn’t I do this with her?

“I’m so confused,” I murmur.

“Why do you say that?” she asks gently.

Opening my eyes, I look down at her wrist, which still bears the marks that I left on her. I’m trying to

protect her from my old life. And this is what I do?

How can I keep her safe, when I can’t even keep her safe from me?

“Christian, these don’t matter.” She holds up her hand so the welt is on show. “You gave me a safe

word. Shit—yesterday was fun. I enjoyed it. Stop brooding about it. I like rough sex, I’ve told you that

before.” She sounds panicked. “Is this about the fire? Do you think it’s connected somehow to Charlie

Tango? Is this why you’re worried? Talk to me, Christian, please.”

Don’t frighten her further, Grey.

She frowns. “Don’t overthink this, Christian.” She reaches for the box, opens it, and removes the

camera. Switching it on, she takes the lens cap off, and raises the Nikon to her face, pointing it at me.

I loathe having my photograph taken. The last time I did it willingly was at the wedding, and before that

it was for her, not so long ago, at The Heathman. That was before my life changed irrevocably. Before I

knew her. She presses the button and holds it, taking a burst of photographs.

“I’ll objectify you, then,” she mutters. And once more I know she’s laughing at me, and not putting up

with my bullshit. She edges closer, still looking at me through the lens. One, two, three, she takes

several photos. She pokes her tongue between her teeth as she snaps each one, but I know she’s

unaware that she’s doing it and I’m beguiled. She smiles and captures my answering smile.

Only you, Ana.

Only you can drag me back into the light.

I pose for her, pursing my lips in an exaggerated fashion.

Her grin broadens and she giggles, and it’s such a wonderful sound.

“I thought it was my present,” I grumble.

“Well, it was supposed to be fun, but apparently, it’s a symbol of women’s oppression.” She takes more

photographs.

She’s laughing at me!

Game on, Ana.

“You want to be oppressed?” A delightful vision of her kneeling in front of me, hands tied while she

services my cock, forms in my mind.

“Not oppressed. No,” she whispers, continuing to take photographs.

“I could oppress you big-time, Mrs. Grey.”

“I know you can, Mr. Grey. And you do, frequently.”

Oh. Fuck. She’s serious!

She lowers the camera and stares at me. “What’s wrong, Christian?”

I just want to keep you safe.

She frowns and lifts the camera to her eye once more. “Tell me,” she insists.

Get a grip, Grey.

I damp down my feelings. I can’t deal with them right now. “Nothing,” I answer, and drop out of her line

of sight, remove the camera box from the bed, and grab Ana, dragging her down onto the comforter

and sitting astride her.

“Hey!” she protests, and takes more photographs of me smiling down at her until I take the camera

from her and frame her beautiful face in the viewfinder. I press the shutter and capture her loveliness

for posterity.

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