Feel the Way You Feel, My Love

Chapter 1387

"Yeah..."

Joyce mumbled softly with her head low. Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

Natalie held her hand as she said, "Not only must you give up on this, but you'll also have to endure a lot more than most other people.For example, you'll have to deal with people gossiping about you and judging you.I had a lot of people asking me all sorts of questions while I was pregnant with Connor and Sharon, and that continued even after I gave birth to them.Stuff like who their father is, why I got pregnant before marriage...They even badmouthed me behind my back and accused me of getting pregnant because I was sleeping around like a wh*re.Are you able to put up with all of that?"

"Iam.If you're able to endure all that yourself, then there's no reason I can't do the same.Besides, you know how stubborn I am.Even if I did make the wrong decision, I'd still march down that path regardless because that's just who I am" Natalie nodded.

"I know.But even if you're able to endure all of that, what about the child's questions? A child needs a father figure in life, and he will surely ask you about it.I'm sure you wouldn't want to tell him who his father is, right? After all, he is only fatherless because his father refused to accept him, and knowing that would upset him greatly"

Joyce bit down on her lip and kept quiet after that.

Natalie is right...

That is indeed the main reason why I don't plan on telling my child who his father is...

"Kids are extremely curious, Joyce.Refusing to tell them about something will only make them want to know about it even more.Connor often asked me about his father's identity, but I didn't know what to tell

him.It breaks my heart seeing how much he yearns to know about his father, but I couldn't bring myself to tell him the truth.

It hurts really badly to see your child get disappointed because he can't get the answer he's looking for’ Natalie continued while pressing a hand against her chest.

Joyce flashed her a wry smile and took a deep breath before saying, "Actually, I know about everything you just said because I personally witnessed you go through it all.I'm well aware of what's in store for me if I choose to keep this baby.All I'm trying to say is, I am confident in my ability to provide this child with twice as much love so he won't need a father.I am also mentally prepared to deal with the judgment from others"

Natalie nodded.

"I understand.So, you're sure that you want to keep this baby, right?"

Joyce lowered her gaze.

"Yes, that's right.I was feeling conflicted about it at first, but now I am certain.It may be impossible for Stanley and I to get together, but I can still keep our child.That way, I will be able to conclude my feelings toward him."

Perhaps this child is my final reward for loving Stanley over the past ten years.

With that in mind, Joyce rubbed her tummy and said with a faint smile, "Besides, something tells me I might regret it for the rest of my life if I don't keep this baby."

"Yeah, that's what I felt too when I thought about aborting Connor and Sharon back then.Regret was the reason I chose not to go through with the abortion.I kept asking myself if it was the right thing to do,

and if I would regret my decision later on in life.Given everything that has happened, I can say with absolute certainty that I would've regretted getting an abortion"

"See? You think so too, and you didn't even know who their father was at the time.Since I do, there's no way I could bring myself to abort this baby! I don't want to live the rest of my life in regret.Keeping this child may make my life extremely difficult, but at least I won't regret it."

Joyce then turned toward her parents as she continued, "Mom, Dad, please let me keep this baby.I'll be sure to live well for my child's sake! I won't do anything stupid anymore!"