Ex-Husband's Regret

She doesn't give any of them a chance to answer. She gently swoops Iris from Rowan's arms, grabs my hand, and tugs me away from the two men, who looked awkward standing together.

We are both silent as we head upstairs towards Iris's room. Once we get there, mom gently lays Iris in her crib. Once she's settled, she takes my hand, and we take a seat near the window. "So, tell me, have you made a decision about Rowan?" she asks, holding my hand.

I turn to face her and shake my head. "No. I'm still not sure about things.

"I've been thinking about it and I think that you should start getting therapy. Letty had told me that you'd started but stopped for obvious reasons. I think that you should resume." She begins. "You went through a lot, and obviously letting go is going to be hard. You need help and someone to guide you in your healing journey."

I go to interrupt, but she cuts me off.

"I get it, my love, but you need this. Whether you choose to stay with Rowan or not, you will still need therapy. You can't say that you'll heal on your own, and sitting around without addressing the issue won't help at all. You'll try to move on, whether with Rowan or not, but the past will always drag you back until you address the problem, so please think about it"

I remained quiet for a while. I get it and it does make sense. My issue is that I'm having a hard time letting go of the past. Unless I deal with what happened, I will never heal or truly move on.

"Okay, mom, I'll do it."

She tightens her hand around mine. "Another thing, if you decide to get back with Rowan, you'll both need couple therapy. Maybe Rowan will also need therapy on his own. Your lives started off on the wrong foot. You messed up when you obsessed over a man who belonged to someone else. I'm not saying that what Rowan did was okay, but any sane person would do the same thing. (2)

He was hurt, angry, and had lost the girl he loved because of you. Yes, you were both drunk, but that doesn't take away the fact that you stalked him and approached him when he was alone and drinking. That was terrible of you, but I also understand that you were young. We were all young and stupid at one point in our lives and made mistakes we can't take back."This belongs to NôvelDrama.Org - ©.

Everything she said made sense. I knew Emma and Rowan loved each other back then. I should have tried my best to crush my feelings for him instead of allowing them to foster and turn into an obsession.

I was drunk when we had sex, but I wasn't when I decided to stalk him across town. I was completely sober when I joined him at the bar, despite knowing he had been heavily drinking.

And I was definitely not drunk yet when I started flirting.

I take a deep breath and release. I've been blaming Rowan for how our marriage turned out all these years, but how much of it was my fault? 

Sighing, I look at my mom. "I don't know where we stand, but if we do give it a chance, I'll make sure we seek couple's therapy."

"Good," she nods with a small smile. "Now, let go downstairs before your dad accidentally murders Rowan."

I chuckled at that while picking up the baby monitor, "We both know it wouldn't be an accident."

We leave the room and head downstairs while chatting. We'd just gotten on the last step when the door opened. Kate walks in; she looked pristine as always, but the person behind her shocked me Emma followed behind her. She looked like shit... and I'm not saying it as an insult, but she looked like she'd been to hell and back.