Ex-Husband's Regret

I look outside and gasp. The place was ethereal. It was an open space with lush grass and probably dozens of different flowers. That wasn’t even what I loved most about it. It was the view. Thousands of stars were twinking, as if approving of this date.

“Do you like it?” Rowan asks, and my only answer is a nod. Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.

I slowly get out of the car, breathing in the fresh air and taking in the breathtaking, stunning view. I walk almost to the edge and look down at the city below. How Rowan found this place, I don’t know, and I don’t care.

I close my eyes, feeling all my worries wash away. This is exactly my kind of scene. I just love it.

When I turn around, I find Rowan has already set up everything. There was a blanket and a picnic basket with what I assume were chocolates, strawberries, and wine. Along with it is the food we order.

I walk slowly towards him, take off my shoes, and sit down next to him.

“This is amazing, Rowan. Thank you”

He nods his head. “Anything to make you happy, darling. Now let’s eat, because I’m fucking starving.”

We eat in silence, and I take the opportunity to just admire the scenery and my date. Of course, I knew that Rowan was romantic; I saw it thousands of times when he was with Emma. I just never thought he would ever show it to me.

“I never thought I would ever be out on a date with you. I feel special today,” I tell him after we are done eating.

“Well you are and you deserve to be made to feel special every fucking day of your life… I can’t believe how fucking blind I have been all these years, not just to your beauty but also to who you are as a person. You’re my superwoman; I’m so fucking sorry it took me this long to realize it,” he says, taking my hand and holding it in his warm one.

“It’s okay. It’s in the past.”

“No, it’s not, Ava. I’m so fucking sorry I hurt you all of these years and took your love for granted. I’m not even sure I deserve your forgiveness or another chance with you. Hell, I don’t even know if I’ll ever make up for all the shit I put you through, but I promise I’ll keep trying, even if it takes all my life to prove to you that I’m a worthy man. I’ll keep trying till I earn your love and forgiveness.”

My eyes tear up, and I try my best to blink them away. The honesty in his eyes is my undoing. to the core.

Instead of answering, I ́mesh my mouth with his. Letting him feel everything that I was unable to tell him with words. Letting him know that I’m willing to give him that chance. When we pull away from each other, we are both breathing hard.

“So tell me? How did you know that I have a simple taste and that I would love this place? Or was it a lucky guess?” I ask once our breathing is back to normal.

He takes a deep breath. He looks like he’s trying to put his thoughts back in order after our heated kiss.

“I know you think I didn’t pay attention through the years, but I did. I know you, Ava. I just pretended that I didn’t”

“Really? Prove it” I challenge knowing very well that Rowan never paid attention to me.

“Fine.” He release a breath of air. “You take your coffee with milk and two sugars no more no less. For some odd reason, you like adding cinnamon to it. You love ice cream. You could eat any flavor, but you always go back to plain vanilla because it’s your favorite. You love that it tastes like milk since you loved milk so much when you were a kid”