Ex-Husband's Regret

It was all so fucking confusing and frustrating. I hate that I have to be told about my life by other people. It’s something that I should be able to remember instead of being told about it like it was a damn story.

“You hinted that you came into my life after Emma came back, but you already knew our story. How’s that possible, and how did we meet?”

“Travis and I are dating. We’ve been dating for almost two years now. I knew of your history with Emma

and Rowan because Travis told me.

And things get even more interesting. I didn’t see that coming. Given how think he would warn his girlfriend to stay away from me.

Travis also despised me, I’d

Also, how are we even friends? Travis is a piece of work, and I’m sure his girlfriend is probably the same.

After all, don’t birds of a feather flock together?

She must have seen the doubt in my eyes because she grabs my hand.

“I know what you’re thinking, but it isn’t like that. After Travis told me about you, I kept my distance. Not because I supported them and what they did to you, but because I was afraid you’d reject my friendship because I was dating him. It was after your attack that I came looking for you. I wanted to make sure your were okay and that you knew you weren’t alone.”

Taking a sip of my drink, I remain silent for a while. There was a lot to unpack from what she told me.

“If you were afraid that I wouldn’t accept your friendship, then that means Travis and I weren’t on good

terms.”

“Yes.” She replied, shifting in her seat. “You’d cut him from your life.”

Well, there is another surprise.

I only had one question, though:

“Why would I have cut him off and not Rowan? He’s caused me more pain than almost everyone

combined.”

Panic flashes in her eyes. I see her begin to get nervous before she forces herself to calm down. If what, she was saying was the truth, why would she panic at my simple question?

That’s something you have to figure out yourself,” she finally answers. “But I think that it’s maybe because, even though you tried killing your love for Rowan, you never succeeded. It was buried under years of pain, but it never faded. On the other hand, your love for Travis, Kate, and James. It faded. That’s

I go to say something, but she cuts me off.

“Plus, it’s hard to move on from someone when he is constantly around you. Because of the shared cust …” Her eyes widen as if she’d caught herself right before revealing something she wasn’t supposed to.” Because of Noah, you two were always around each other.”

I hum as my brain tries to figure out what she’d been about to say. Could she have meant to say shared custody? If so, doesn’t that mean that Rowan and I divorced?

More questions just keep arising in my head. It was driving me nuts, honestly. All I wanted was to figure

out the damn truth.

“What about my relationship with Ethan?” I ask her, maybe she could shed more light on that.

She answers with a question of her own. “What has Rowan told you?”

Shrugging my shoulders, I reply. “Nothing much. Just that I was seeing him during the time he was courting Emma… I can’t help but wonder, though; I know myself. At least my current self, and I know! would never have slept with another man if I at least didn’t feel something strong for him.”

Letty stares at me for a long time before answering.

“You were highly attracted to him, but apart from that, you were falling for him. You once told me that you felt really strongly for him and that you could actually imagine a future with him. That you could see yourself building a life with him and loving him”

Color me shocked. Shit. Was she honestly telling the truth? Was I really falling for some other man? I always thought that Rowan was it for me. I never considered other men because he was embedded deep in my soul. I thought I would never fall out of love with him, even if he went back to Emma. Content bel0ngs to Nôvel(D)r/a/ma.Org.

To find out that this almost happened leaves me feeling some type of way.

I look up at her with unfocused eyes.

“And what happened to Ethan? Why isn’t he around? If I were falling in love with him, why am I now with Rowan? I don’t understand.” I stammer, firing question after question at her.

She goes to answer, but a cold and deadly voice stops her.

“That’s fucking enough Letty”

I swivel around in my chair, and my eyes collide with the gray, angry ones belonging to Rowan.