Ex-Husband's Regret

“I still think that I should stay home with you and Iris.” I reluctantly put my shirt on as my eyes met with

the brown orbs of Ava through the mirror.

She was seated on the bed, still in her nightgown. Noah had already left for school. He’d also been

reluctant to leave for school. Not that he had a choice.

“You need to go to work,” she insists as she stands up and walks to me.

She lightly runs her hand up my chest before she begins to button my shirt. Having her hands on me takes

me back to yesterday night.

The taste of her lips still lingers on mine. I can’t get the image of her rubbing herself against my hardness out of my mind. She looked so beautiful and sexy at that time. I’d wanted nothing more than to rip off her very short night gown and fuck her till neither of us could walk.

The intensity of how much I’d craved her shocked me to the core. It was new, passionate, and all- consuming. It was something I never fucking thought I would feel towards her.

I’d felt the moisture of her arousal through her panties, and it had taken everything in me to stop.

I meant what I said. I wasn’t going to touch her until her love for me had been revived and until she finally started believing that I did love her. No one but her. Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.

“That’s the thing, Ava, I don’t have to go to work because I am the fucking CEO” I force myself back to the present. “What’s the use of being the boss if I can’t take a few days off to take care of my wife and

my

princess?”

I shift to try and relieve the uncomfortableness of my pants which had become too tight. The last thing I need is a hard on. Last night I had to literally take matters in hand because of the massive case of blue

balls.

Ava finishes and places an unsure kiss on my cheek. I can tell she still doesn’t trust what was happening between us. She was so used to being pushed away and her efforts shot down that she didn’t understand

or trust this new intimacy.

Before she can pull away, I grab her waist and bring her flush against my body. I take her lips, finally

kissing her like I’ve been wanting to do since I woke up.

One of the things I’ve come to love about her, is how responsive she is. She immediately melts in my

I think the only thing keeping her from collapsing to the floor is my arm around her waist.

Breaking the kiss, I stare at her beautiful face. We were both breathless, but we didn’t really care.

I still don’t know how I was able to fucking resist her when she was a whole damn package. It boggles my mind every time I think about it. I can’t even begin to imagine my life without her.

“I do want you, Ava and I hope that one day you’ll believe that and that I want to make a life with you”

There is a struggle behind her eyes. She doesn’t know if she should believe me. If she should trust my

words and actions towards her.

It kills me that she doesn’t, but I have no one else to blame, but myself.

“I hope to believe you one day, because life since I woke up has been heavenly. It’s been like a dream

come true and I want to keep it that way” she smiles gently at me.

Kissing her one last time, I lean my forehead against hers. “Like I said, I’ll prove it to you, Ava. I’ll prove that I’ve changed, that I want no one but you. I’m a man and I’ll do stupid shit but I promise never to hurt

you deliberately”

She nods her head, but doesn’t say a thing.

The intimate air is broken when Iris screams through the baby monitor.

“1 should check on her she whispers, while looking in the direction of the monitor.

“Go” I tell her. “I’ll finish here and then come say goodbye to you two”

After giving me one longing look, she leaves.

I finish dressing up and leave the room. Entering Iris’s room I find Ava

her.

seated on the rocking chair feeding

“There’s something really sexy about watching you feed her” I say then cross the room to them.

Kneeling down before them, I kiss Iris on the forehead. Ava and I both smile when she stops suckling for

a while, looks at me then continues on.

Iris is perfect and she had me wrapped around her tinny finger. I would never regret Iris, but I can’t help but feel like my stupidity cost me a lot. If I hadn’t been so stubborn and foolish maybe I would have had a daughter of my own by now.

Ava wanted more children with me, but I didn’t, not with her anyway. I be leved that I would end up with Emma one day and that having more kids with Ava would have just complicated things further,

Denying her request was also my way of punishing her. I wanted to hurt her with the knowledge that t

Jokes on me though. She got her desire. She got another baby. Only she had her with another man.

“Rowan…” her voice pulls me back to the present. “Are you okay? You zoned out while looking at Iris”

I shift my eyes to her and let her see the truth of my words “Was just wondering how our daughter would have looked like, had we had another baby after Noah”

“You didn’t want any more children with me” she points out as pain and heartache filters through her soul.

1 know” I sigh. “It’s one of my many regret”

Fuck. I had a lot of regrets and so much to make up for. Not just the years during our marriage, but even

before that.

I

I wasn’t that kind to Ava when we young, I knew she had a crush on me. Everyone did. It made me feel suffocated because I thought I would never feel that way about her, so I treated her as cruelly as I could

because I was afraid that she would come between Emma and I.

She’s quiet as she studies me. I know I’ve shocked her with this new revelation, but I just wanted her to

know that I would never regret any children we may have had.

“Maybe.” she starts tentatively. “Maybe after Iris is a little older and you’ve proven yourself… maybe then.

we can add to our family”

Hope blooms inside me and I can’t help it when I kiss her again because damn it, she was irresistible.

“Deal” I murmur against her lips.

I straighten after a few minutes and check my watch. I was going to be late if I didn’t hurry up. Saying

goodbye to both of my girls, I leave.

I wanted to hold on to the hope she had given, but I couldn’t it. Not when a nagging voice kept whispering

inside my head:

“What will happen when she finds out you’ve been lying to her?”