Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0501

Emma.

I am nervous. I am very nervous. My heart is racing and I can barely breathe. I clutch the steering wheel in a tight grip as I try to calm down the panic that was surging inside me.

If I am honest, then I'll admit that I have been skeptical since talking to Ava. My words were a false bravado from a woman who, at the moment, had an unusual surge in confidence. After Ava left, that false bravado faded. The confidence I had dropped and I was left doubting the decision I had made.

I struggled with it, wondering if I was doing the right thing. I doubted the actions I wanted to take. I wasn't sure if it would bear fruits or if I would be making things worse by pushing myself onto them.

Finally, I decided to hold off on my plans. It surprised me, honestly, I wasn't like that before. I never doubted myself or my decisions. If I wanted something, I went after it, guns blazing.

Yesterday after I talked to Mia, it opened my eyes. She asked me if I was sure about making things right. I was sure. That is what I wanted. I couldn't help but ask myself one question as I went home. If being in Gunner's life was what I wanted, then why was I hesitating concerning the decision I had made?

I got home and the question kept ringing in my head like a broken record. The rest of the day, I thought about nothing else. Finally, before going to sleep, I decided to go through with the plan. This was the only way to get close to them. To get close to Gunner. He was what I wanted and I was planning to go after him, guns blazing. Content belong to NôvelDráma. Org.

Which brings me to now. When I got up in the morning, I called Ava and told her that I'd be coming in the afternoon. She was happy to hear. So glad that I hadn't backed out from my original plan. She'd given me her new address and I was on my way there now.

I push down the panic that threatens to eat me alive. Taking a deep breathe, I loosen the grip I had on the steering wheel. I was driving and I needed to relax. The last thing I need is to get into an accident.

"Turn left, on the fifth avenue." Siri's the tense atmosphere inside my car.

Following her direction, I turn the wheel and get on to the avenue, driving at a slow pace as I try to get my emotions under wraps.

I continue following directions until I get to an exclusive community for the upper rich. I grew up around wealth, but I still get shocked when I come across evidence of wealth that is beyond my imagination.

Going at the required speed limit of ten, I follow Siri's voice till it leads me to a black wrought iron gate.

"You have reached your destination." Her voice says before turning off.

Rolling my window down, I press a button with a bell engraved on it, on the screen next to the gates.

"Hello?" Ava's voice comes through the speaker.

"Hi, Ava, it's Emma. I'm at the gates."

"Oh, hi," Her voice turns cheerful "Let me just open them for you. Follow the driveway till the end." "Thanks."

Seconds later, the gates open soundlessly. I release the breaks and drive through the long driveway. Finally, I see their house and it's completely marvelous. It's straight out of a dream. It even had a fountain at the front.

I park my car and get out. Taking a deep breathe, I slowly walk towards the house, my nervousness now back. Gently knocking the door, I step back and wait.NôvelDrama.Org holds © this.

Slowly, the door opens before Noah's head peaks out.

"Oh, it's you," he says in an emotionless and detached tone. "What are you doing here?"

Looking at him, I see so much of Rowan in him that, for a minute, I forget that this is his son. I never got to interact with Noah. For some reason, he hated me from the moment her first saw me.

"Hi, Noah," I say, unsure, with a slight tremble in my voice.

Does it say something about me that the two kids I know in my life hate me?

"I asked what you want." His voice was cold. I have never been intimated by a kid before. There was just something about Noah that was domineering.

"I'm here to see your mom," I reply nervously, shifting from one foot to another as his grey eyes bore into me.

I felt like he was searing my soul. His stare left me feeling like he could see the ugly parts of me that I try to hide. My guilt, self-hatred, and insecurities. I felt like he could see them all.

"I hope you are not here to cause any trouble because I won't let you," he hisses, his voice taut. "Because let me warn you, lady, I won't let you upset my mother."

My heart breaks all over again watching just how ready he was to tear me down if I so much looked at Ava wrong. I could have had this with Gunner, yet I ruined it all because I was selfish.