Chapter 40 Unexpected Deal
Alice’s P. O. V.
As I enter my room after our sexual encounter on the staircase, I unleash my frustration, berating myself. “What is happening to me? When did I become so consumed with desire? Why did I lose control after seeing him? This shouldn’t have happened.”
I sit on the edges of my bed and pull my hair in frustration.
It’s done now, but I won’t let myself lose control like that again.
I go to the bathroom to take a quick shower to refresh my mind.
While showering, images of our wild encounter on the staircase flash through my mind, and I become wet for him again.
Damn! Why am I so physically attracted to this rude billionaire?
In the past, it was his love only I yearned for, but now I crave both his love and the fulfilment of my physical desires from him.
I don’t want to form an emotional attachment with him, despite wanting his love, because I can’t allow him to break my already shattered heart once more.NôvelDrama.Org content rights.
I want to be with him, but I can’t forgive him or give him a second chance.
I’m not understanding what I should do.
Next morning,
I wake up, feeling completely drained of energy.
Last night, I couldn’t sleep properly because my mind was restless with thoughts about what I should do since I’m yearning for him.
A broad smile spreads across my face as an idea comes to mind. Finally, I have a way to be with him without the fear of being hurt.
I jump out of my bed and get decked in my maid outfit with a swift motion before leaving for his room.
His room door is ajar, so I peek inside and find him still asleep. As I enter his room, a pungent smell of smoke hits my nostrils.
Why does he smoke so much?
“Whatever he does, I don’t care.” I mutter, rolling my eyes.
His room is untidy, so I indulge myself in cleaning it to kill time.
Once I finish my work, I stand beside his bed and gaze at him. While he sleeps, he looks innocent and sweet, but in reality, he is a monster.
How did I develop feelings for a man like him?
I have decided now that I won’t repeat this mistake. What is going on in my mind is the best solution for us.
A grin flashes on my face as I think about my idea.
Alexander’s P. O. V.
As my eyes flutter open in the morning, I’m taken aback to find Alice standing by my bed, dressed in her maid uniform, a radiant smile adorning her face.
Last night, she was killing me with her angry looks, and today she is smiling at me. Is she alright? What happened to her?
“Sir, I have a deal for you.” She speaks, causing my brows to furrow in confusion.
“What type of deal?” I enquire, sitting up.
“Do you want me back in your life?” She asks, and I give her an instant nod because that’s all I desire at this moment.
“Yes. Of course, Alice.” Her smile brightens upon hearing my response.
I can’t quite comprehend what’s going on in her tiny head.
She sighs. “I just want a physical relationship with you.” Her words cause me to cough in disbelief.
What is she saying? Am I dreaming? What happened to my innocent Alice?
She continues, “But this time, we’ll have equal rights. You can’t control or insult me. We’ll reach out to each other when we need one another for sex. If you accept these terms, I’m ready to be back in your life. So, that’s the deal.”
As she explains the deal, I just stare at her in utter disbelief. Today, I witness a different side of Alice.
But why does she desire only a physical relationship with me?
“So, what’s your decision?” She arches her brows at me, desperate to know my decision.
“I know you’re dominant, and it will be difficult for you. You only want me as your submissive-”
“I accept your deal.” I interrupt, agreeing to a physical relationship with her because having her in my life in any way is all I want right now.
She grins at me so innocently, stealing my heart all over again.
Today I vow that by being only in a physical relationship with her, I’ll win her heart.
At least she will be with me now.
But the question remains: Why does she only want a physical relationship when she loves me?
“Why only a physical relationship, Alice?” I enquire in a grim tone.
“Because I’m a whore.” As she speaks, her eyes brim with tears and my eyes glint with remorse.
I wish I had listened to her that night and not insulted her.
“I’m truly sorry for calling you that, Alice. I was so angry-”
“Your sorry can’t fix my heart, sir. I can never forgive you.” She shakes her head, giving me a dejected look.
“After all this, why do you want to come into a physical relationship with me?” I ask her because I really want to know that if she can’t forgive me and she is still so hurt and angry with me, then why she wants a physical relationship with me?
“Why should I answer you?” She raises her brows at me and asks, folding her arms across her chest.
I rise from the bed and stand in front of her. “Because I want to know, Alice.” I reply, placing my hands on her arms.
“And I don’t want to answer you.” She answers me curtly, shoving off my hands.
“Alice, if you think I only want you for physical needs, you’re mistaken-”
“Sir, please stop explaining. I just want a physical relationship with you, with no emotional attachments.” She explains to me in a stern tone.
“When you despise me so much, Alice, why do you still want to be in any kind of relationship with me?” I ask her once again, desperate to know the reason.
“I’m not answerable to you, sir.” As she turns to leave, I grab her hand and turn her back towards me in a swift motion.
I clutch her arms and state in a firm tone, glaring into her eyes. “I won’t let you go until you answer.”
She scowls at me. “Let go of me. I’m no longer your submissive.”
“Don’t forget, you’re still a maid here, and I’m your boss, so you’re answerable to me.” I lash out at her in a fit of anger and desperation to know why she still wants to be with me.
“Thank you for reminding me of my place in this mansion and in your heart, sir.” As she speaks, her eyes get moist, and I immediately release her arms as I realise that I’m hurting her again.
After giving me a stinging glance, she hurries out of the room.
“Fuck, my anger! I again hurt her.” I punch the wall in fury, bruising my knuckle.
“Is this how you plan to win her heart, Alexander? Is this your strategy?” I rebuke myself, constantly hitting the wall, and blood oozes from my knuckles.
I despise myself for hurting this pure soul, for causing her to change. I still can’t believe that my innocent Alice approached me with this kind of deal. She has changed because of me.
However, I’m still confused. If she hates me so much, then why does she want to have a physical relationship with me? This question is really bothering me.
Why can’t she just tell me?
Alexander, you should be happy because at least now you have a chance to spend time with her.
I compose myself and state, staring straight in sheer determination. “Now, you’ll see a changed Alexander, Alice. I promise I’ll never shout at you or insult you again. I’ll do anything to win your heart because I don’t want to lose a precious soul like you.”