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Sophia’s POV
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“Leave my arm, or I will literally knee you.”, I threatened, and immediately he left my hand.
“Why are you talking to me in this tone?”, He asked in confusion, totally startled by my anger. “When you’re not regretting anything, then why can I feel anger in tone and voice, and you are pissed too, which is quite rare!”
“You seriously have no idea what I’m pissed about?”
“I’m sorry, but I’m not able t figure it out.”
“That’s because what suppose to be one of the best moments for me, you spoiled it by indicating that you’re regretting it.”, I said directly instead of wasting time playing GUESS OR IDENTIFY the reason behind my anger.
“I don’t understand how can sex with me is one of the best moments of your life? Have you forgotten the clause of the contract that…”
“Do the hell with the clause, Brandon. I know that very well, but now neither I want to leave you nor stop myself from falling in love with you.”
“WHAT?”
“You heard me, Brandon. And I’m positive that you might have remembered my confession from the last night. If not, then I don’t mind repeating over and over again that I love you, Brandon. I really do. I didn’t know how this happened and when but I have fallen in love with you, Brandon, and I don’t want to leave you even when the contracts end. And if I’m not wrong, then we have already broken two clauses of the contract, because of which the contract between us has already been revoked.”
I said such a long speech, but he didn’t say a word, just kept staring at me like a statue. He shook his head before speaking, “I’m not the right person to fall in love with, Sophia.”
“My heart knows whether you’re the right person or not. So, you don’t have to tell me that about that. Because I know you’re the best person, and any girl will be so lucky to have you in their life.”
He chuckled, “You’re saying so even without knowing anything about me.”
“I know you enough to fall for you and about your past… dad told me about Abby and….”
“Don’t… Don’t take her name from your mouth.”, he said, and out of the blue, his demeanor changed. He seemed irritated with the fact that I took her name. So, there was no doubt that he still loved her and he would always love her. He took a deep breath and then released it after a while, maybe to calm down. “Sophia, my past won’t allow me to love you.”
I nodded my head in an understanding way. “You might think me selfish by saying this, but I’m saying this for you; remember that every day is a new day, and you will never be able to find happiness if you don’t move on. One of the hardest lessons in life is letting go. Whether it’s guilt, anger, love, loss, or betrayal. Change is never easy.”
“Easy for you to say, but I will see how you will ‘let go’ the pain when you will feel anger, love, loss, or betrayal when you will ever face it.”
“You see, will that I will let go of all the things and rise to shine if you will be my side.”
“Don’t trust me so much, Sophia. Who knows, I might have hidden things from you and might be betraying you, even you NOW.”
I couldn’t understand what he meant by that sentence and then thought about it.
How would I react realized that Brandon had hidden something from me and was betraying me?
Well, I believe he surely has reason to do so.
He would never hide anything from me until and unless the news would hurt me the most, right?
“Then I will try to understand the reason behind your such action.”
“And what if my action would be beyond your understanding?’
“Then I will be patient with you and wait till the moment when you will yourself tell me about it.”
“And what if you will block me everywhere and won’t listen to me?”
“That won’t happen because I can’t stay angry for long even if I want to.”
“So, you sure about not leaving me?”
“I don’t want to. If you want, I’m ready to sign another contract again stating that I don’t need a penny from you if you have any thoughts that I want to stay because of your money.”From NôvelDrama.Org.
“And what if I want to leave you?”
My heart missed a bit when I heard that. Holding back my tears, I replied, “I can’t force you.”
He just kept staring at me like a statue thinking something. Only if I could understand and read his thoughts. Only he knew what he was thinking.
“As for now, just… just don’t ignore me, and I will also not avoid you.”
Says the one who wanted to stay away from me. I didn’t talk back. I just nodded my head obediently.
“By the way, can you ask someone to get a contraceptive pill?” I asked, on which he furrowed his eyes at first, then widened, and then he quickly nodded his head.
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We returned from Paris after the vacation of one week last night, and by that time, Oliver stayed with Dad, taking care of him like a son. But after our arrival, he left, stating he would visit me at the weekend. And talking about my relationship with Brandon, I was having a hard time acting as if nothing happened, and I was sure that his situation was no different, but he was good at hiding it. While I was struggling, trying to keep my hands away from him, reminding me again and again that I couldn’t throw myself on him like a prostitute.
So, I kind of ended up avoiding him this morning. I didn’t want to do that, but I just couldn’t act as if nothing had happened.
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#TBC