Arranged Bratva Love

Adelaide

I’m pacing the floor waiting for Andrei to either call or to walk right in the front door. My hands shook as I held my cell phone. I hadn’t called him, even though I wanted to. I want to make sure he’s okay.

Leo won’t leave. I’ve told him not to worry and to do something else, but he won’t listen. He continued to stand guard.This text is property of Nô/velD/rama.Org.

“Is he okay?” I asked.

“I would have gotten a call if he wasn’t,” Leo said.

“That’s not comforting.”

“Why don’t you sit down?”

I shake my head. “No. I can’t sit down. Someone shot at us.”

“Mr. Belov knows how to deal with this, Adelaide. He is perfectly capable.”

“But someone wants him dead.” I look at my cell phone, stop, and turn to Leo.

“Someone always wants him dead.”

Tears fill my eyes. “That isn’t good.”

“I know. This is the life he leads. This is not the first, nor will it be the last attack on his life. This is what happens.”

I move toward the stairs. My legs had started to ache and I dropped down onto the second step. “That’s awful.”

“He’s used to it.”

“I highly doubt that. I don’t think anyone in their right mind could get used to having their life constantly in danger.” I put my hands on my face and attempt to wipe my eyes, to clear my thoughts, but nothing is happening. “I don’t know how you can be so calm.”

“I have no choice,” Leo said.

Alone with him, I feel the guilt at what I did to him. “I never said sorry.”

“You don’t have to apologize.”

“Don’t be like that, Leo. I betrayed your trust and I am sorry. You must hate me.”

I know I hate myself for doing it. I’d found the sleeping pills days before I had given them to Leo. At first, I’d thrown them in the trash, but then I had the feeling I was going to need them, and I did.

“I don’t hate you.”

“I hate myself. Drugging you like that was awful. I didn’t even think of Andrei being angry at you.”

“He should have killed me,” Leo said.

“But he didn’t.”

“Because of you,” Leo said. “So we’re even.”

This made me want to cry even harder. “Have you ever thought it might be because you’re a good man and soldier to him? Saving you might not have had anything to do with me.”

Leo shook his head. “That’s not how this works. Andrei spared my life to help you.”

I still didn’t believe it.

“Have you heard anything?”

“Are you not curious as to why?”

I looked at Leo and pursed my lips. “I’m not sure I know why.”

“He loves you.”

“You’re wrong. Andrei doesn’t have feelings for me. I’m his wife, and he was forced to marry me.”

Leo laughed. “Haven’t you realized yet that Andrei doesn’t do anything he doesn’t want to do?”

“But Ivan is the one in charge.”

“Yes, he is, but Andrei didn’t fight him on this, and everything he’s done shows he loves you. He is in love with you.”

I rub at my temple, a little uncomfortable. “I think you’re wrong.”

“Do you love him?” Leo asked.

“That is none of your business.”

“Funny, I would say you are in love with him because you didn’t want him to leave you.”

“Maybe I was being selfish and I figured if he was with me, he’d be an easier target.” It was all lies.

“No, I believe you love Andrei, and you were terrified of anything happening to him, which is why you begged him not to go back. You are in love with him.”

But that didn’t mean he loved me. I wasn’t one to dwell on old emotions, but years of being second best, constantly made to feel like I didn’t measure up to Bethany’s standards, hit me so fucking hard.

These feelings were not fair. I didn’t want them. I hated them.

Bethany wasn’t better than me and I certainly stopped comparing myself. My parents hadn’t loved me. Friends had easily abandoned me for the more fun-loving sister. They never gave me a chance.

Wrapping my arms around myself, I tried to hold on for dear life because the truth is, I was in love with Andrei. I don’t know if it happened on our honeymoon, or when, but it was there, blaringly obvious, and I was unable to deny it.

He’d somehow gotten under my skin, worked his way into my heart, and now I couldn’t stop.

“There’s no guarantee he’ll make it home tonight,” Leo said.

I didn’t like that. He had to.

“Then I’ll wait right here until he does.” I fold my arms determined to wait for my husband.

Even as I stare at the door, desperate for him to walk through it, I can’t help but be reminded of that moment the gun went off. I’d been so happy. Andrei had wanted to spend the day with me. He’d woken me up this morning, stroking my body, arousing me, getting me ready to take him. He’d made love to me. It had started slow and gentle, but it was like he couldn’t get enough of me, and he’d gotten rough, commanding, and I loved every second of it. Even now, I’m sure I can still feel him on me, inside me.

Resting my hands on my thighs, I keep my gaze on the door. After making love, we’d taken a long shower. He’d washed every single inch of my body, taking care of me, before we’d gone down to breakfast. It was while eating my way through a selection of fruit he’d told me I had him for the day. Our house didn’t feel like it, and I knew it was because we had to put our mark on the place, with furniture. No home was complete until you made it your own, and that was what I’d been determined to do.

Even as he griped, I made a note of anything that gained his interest. I’d been able to order a couple of lamps, and he rather liked this globe-shaped liquor cabinet. I thought it was ugly, but Andrei liked it. I’d hoped he’d put it in his office, but I wouldn’t mind if he asked for it in the sitting room. This was our space.

Some people would call me crazy. I’d started to set up this life with a guy in the Bratva. I was a normal girl, well, as close to normal having a model mother and a father within media could be.

He had to come through that door.

Pressing my lips together, I felt so tired.

“I’ll keep watch, Adelaide. Go to bed. Get some sleep.”

“No.”

“Adelaide?”

“No. I’m staying right here.”

Leo stands by the stairs, not moving. Every now and then, he asks me to leave, but I can’t do it. I have to wait. Andrei had to walk through the door.

I only look away to glance down at my cell phone to see if I’d missed a call. Nothing.

Waiting is torture. I don’t know how anyone could live like this. The hours ticked on. Leo tried to get me to eat and drink, but I refused. I can’t even stomach food right now.

The sun sets and the hours continue to tick by. At the sound of a car approaching, I stand up and wait. It could be anyone. The guards changing for the night shift. Andrei. Terrance. Was it Ivan to bring me bad news that he’d not made it?

Steps sounded through the door and then it opened. I threw myself at Andre, wrapping my arms around him, breathing him in. Holding him, convincing myself that he is in fact real and I’m not imagining it. His arms are so strong as they wrap around me.

Leo and Terrance disappear as Andrei picked me up and carried me across the room toward his office. Pressing my face against his neck, I smile, just so damn happy he’s here. He’s with me. He’s not going away.

“What’s the matter?” he asked.

“Nothing.”

“Adelaide, talk to me.”

“I … I was scared.” He dropped me onto the edge of his desk and I lifted my head to look into his eyes. “I don’t want anything to happen to you.” Running my hands down his chest, I rest my palm over his heart.

“Nothing will happen to me.”

“You’re not invincible, Andrei. Look what happened today.”

“That is business, babe. It’s like that. People want me dead.”

“How can you live like this?”

“I was born living like this. I told you my own father, well, the man who claimed to be my father, wanted me dead before I was even born.” He cupped my face. “I’m used to this and I know how to survive.”

I press a kiss against his palm. His thumb reached out, stroking across my bottom lip. Opening my lips, I suck his thumb into my mouth, staring into his eyes. He groaned. Sliding my hands down his body, I grab the belt buckle and tug it.

Andrei doesn’t do anything. He’s leaving me in charge and I take it. Opening the button, then the fly, I shove his trousers down his body and touch him through his boxer briefs. Andrei had been teaching me how to touch him to drive him wild. I knew what his body liked.

Pushing my hand beneath the boxers, I gave his length a squeeze, and he released a hiss. Slowly, I start to run my hand up and down his length, and now Andrei, not satisfied, grabs my shirt and tugs it open.

Buttons flew all over the place and his hands go to my breasts, cupping the mounds. “Fuck me, you’re beautiful.”

His mouth goes to my tits, kissing each curve, before he reached around the back and flicked the catch of my bra. The lace was gone, replaced by his hands, cupping my flesh. I don’t stop working his cock, but he pushes my hand out of the way to go for my trousers.

I have no choice but to push my hands down and lift my ass up so he can get them off, and once again he shreds my panties as if they are nothing. It won’t be long until I no longer have any panties left.

The moment his palm touches me, I feel my arousal start to peak. He pressed two fingers against my clit, stroking back and forth, making me gasp and moan. This feels so good. I don’t want him to stop. But he does, to push his fingers down to my entrance, and he slams both fingers inside my pussy.

“So fucking tight.” In and out, he pushes inside, working my body to a fever.

I rock against his hand, and then he kneels down, and his mouth is right on my clit, sucking at it. His teeth are biting down, causing me some pain, but not enough to stop the pleasure. I feel my orgasm start to build. I scream his name, and then his hands are on my waist, pulling me to the edge of the desk.

“Watch me, beautiful,” he said.

I stare between my legs. He grabbed his hard cock, rubbing the tip against my pussy, sliding up and down my slit, grazing across my clit, which was still so sensitive. I almost can’t take it and then I see him go to my entrance and watch as he disappears inside my body. Inch by inch, I see and feel him. He’s rock hard and so wide.

When there is nearly half of him inside me, his hands go to my waist, holding me in place as he slams the last inches inside me, and he goes in deep. I feel him almost at my stomach, he’s that large, but it feels good.

“Lean back. I want to see those tits bounce. Every time I’m working at this desk, I’m going to remember what you look like naked, open, begging for my cock.”

I moan as he pulls out and then slams in deep, taking me by surprise by the sheer depth of his cock. I don’t think I can take much more, but staring into his eyes, I know I can take anything. He starts to pound inside me, fucking me harder, the depth of the thrusts making my tits bounce with each hard push. I loved it.

“Wrap those legs around me. That’s it, take all of me, Adelaide,” he said.

I love hearing my name on his lips. I give myself to him, not wanting to be anywhere else but with him. I’m all Andrei’s. He is who I want. Just him, no one else. I don’t know how it happened, and I’m a little afraid at how easy I fell, but there’s no escaping it. I was in love with him.

I was in love with a monster, but I didn’t care. My only concern now was how to tell him. A new wave of fear hit me. Not of my love for Andrei, but what had happened to me in the past. No one from my past was near me. Not my parents, certainly not my sister. No friends. No Nathan. Nothing. No one. I was all alone. Was it me? Was I unlovable? And that was what held me back. If I told Andrei what I felt, would it push him away?

No one else mattered to me in the past. They hadn’t touched my heart. I was in love with Andrei Belov, and to even think of him walking away shattered my heart into pieces.