Want to Play A Game

I couldn’t sleep last night, I was tossing and turning all night thinking about Matt. What is wrong with me? I don’t even know him but I crave everything about him. I look at my clock it’s only 6:30 in the morning. I decide to get up, there is no point of lying around any longer. I roll out of bed to get my morning shower. As I’m in the shower all I’m thinking about is wanting to touch myself.

I can’t bring myself to do it. I want it to be his hands that are touching my body. As I lather myself up with soap, I imagine that it’s him that is touching my body. It’s making me crazy wanting his hands all over me. I am so disappointed his hands aren’t touching me.

I decide to get out of the shower, I’m getting all hot and bothered thinking of Matt. As I’m drying myself off, I make my way to the closet and pick out my clothes. I think I’ll wear my hair down today even though I never do. Something different is always nice in some ways, I guess. I go and get my phone, I guess I’ll be the first one to break the silence and see what Matt is doing.

So, I text him “Hey time to wake up sleeping beauty and start your day.”

I am hoping he replies, I want to hear from him. I want him to want me as much as I want him. I then hear my phone ding. I jump it scares me at first. I go look at it and it’s him! My panties are getting wet just thinking about texting him knowing I am pathetic all at the same time.

He then asks, “What are you doing up so early?”

“I couldn’t sleep thinking of you made me frustrated most of the night.”

I start to delete what I just wrote, but hit send on accident. Oh fuck! He’s going to think I am a crazy person.

“Really now that’s funny because I couldn’t stop touching myself last night thinking of you.”

I am in shock. I can’t believe that he’s getting off to me makes me horny just thinking about it. I don’t know what to say. I do know, I need to start getting ready for work, but I want to know if he has a girlfriend first.

So I text, “Well what would your girlfriend think if she knew you where touching yourself to me?”

I want to go knock on his door and be like Hey you want to fuck ? I laugh to myself only if I was so brave. I go add a little makeup to myself. I don’t wear much just never really cared, but I want to look hot. As I go to leave my apartment for work, he comes out of his apartment. I am so excited to see him until I see the girl that is getting ready to leave his apartment too.

I don’t say anything, I just pass by him as quickly as possible. I am a little confused like really. It’s not even the same girl from the coffee shop. I go to walk down the stairs and I hear my name. I turn around it’s Matt, Oh heavens.

“Hey how are you today?” I ask with a smile not really sure what to say.

“I’m good not really doing much of anything. I just wanted to let you know that you look fucking sexy as hell today. I enjoy looking at your ass as you walk on by.”

I bite my lip stopping myself from saying what I really want to say. “Don’t you need to get back to your girlfriend?”

He smiles at me, “Don’t be jealous Jessica, she is just my cleaning lady. Have a good day at work.”

“I am not jealous of her. Thank you I will try see you later.”

Yeah, I am so jealous it just sucks that he actually can tell when I get jealous. Truth be told, I know that he likes seeing me jealous maybe that is also a turn on for him.

“I can’t wait! I will watch for that sweet ass to walk by.” He says as I leave for the bus.

I am flattered by his words. I can’t believe that he actually thinks I have a sweet ass. Just playing it over in my head makes me giggle and feel kind of sexy. I’ve never seen myself in that kind of way. I’ve always been simple and believed that I was somewhat attractive but never sexy.

Jake never really made me feel sexy the sex was even getting to the point where it was just the same every time. He never wanted to really explore and experiment on anything.

As I am walking to the bus stop to go to work. I wonder if I’m attracting other people too. Do they also think that I’m sexy or that I have a sweet ass? The bus pulls up, I get on it just thinking about what Matt really thinks of me.

“Then text him “Do you really think I’m sexy or are you just being nice?”

“You really don’t know how sexy you really are do you?”Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.

“Honestly I really just never saw myself that way.”

As I’m getting off the bus and begin walking towards work. I am starting to question everything about myself. Have I just been hiding myself from the actual real world? Is there things that I never really saw about myself that other people see?

I know that I overthink mostly everything. I can’t just go with it, I have to think of every action and every little detail that goes with it. Sometimes I think it’s the worst quality that I have. As I get ready to walk into to my office I see my boss Kendra.

“Hey Jessica, Did you decide to come to work on time today? Hopefully you are free from distractions. So, you will get your work done in a timely manner.”

“Yes I am here on time and ready to work can’t wait!”

I am late one time, and that is all I am going to hear her talk about. Sometimes she can be such a bitch. She won’t let me forget for a while, it will be a every day thing for months now god. I go and sit down at my desk to start my work, my phone dings so I check it.

It’s Matt, I’m excited like a crazy person.

“So, you want to play the game?” I call it the question game? No lying all honesty. I will go first if you want me too.”

“I am at work, so I might not be able to answer back right away but sure if you want to go first that’s okay.”

“So when you went to leave this morning and said you weren’t jealous, were you lying?”

Really damn why does he have to go back to that? “Yes I was lying I was jealous that she was the one coming out of your apartment.”

Oh, fuck I really should have worded that a little differently fuck. He’s going to think that I wanted to be the one coming out. Which is true, but I don’t want him to know that fuck. God I’m so dumb when it comes to him. Why can’t I play it cool?

“So what Jessica, Did you want it to be you?” he ask.

“I can’t answer that I’m sorry but it’s not your turn to ask the question.”

“I’m so sorry but could I text you back when I’m on lunch break? My boss is like looking me up and down like she is going to kick my ass. How I rather be talking to you then be at work but I really need to get all this work done so talk to you soon.”

I am too afraid to ask him what I really want to ask him so I need an excuse and work is the best excuse.

“I can’t wait! I’ll talk to you soon. But I know that you want me as much as I want you to.”